I have been feeling “meh” lately. I can’t put my finger on why. I don’t think it’s the post-marathon blues, although I’m sure there’s a little of that in there too. I feel like I can’t get things organized. My thoughts, my house, my little world feels like it’s a yard sale right after you announce everything is half off. I can’t locate my satellites.
After living in my house for almost a year, you’d think I’d have all my shit together, wouldn’t you? Well, I don’t. I don’t even know where my shit is TO get together. I don’t even have all my pictures picked out for the frames that I haven’t put up yet. Then when I get the pictures printed, my kids have changed enough that I have to wonder if I should just take new pictures and put THOSE up. I’m tired of the mess and the clutter. Admittedly, I’m also still mad about the marathon. I’m not upset about the experience, I’m upset that something so “simple” as salt can tear down in a matter of minutes what it took me months to build and years to earn. So I think I’m still getting over that. I’m still trying to re-boot. It’s almost like I don’t let myself think about the biggest and best marathon that I’ve ever run. And that makes me sad.
So what do you do when you feel “meh”. Me, I sign up for stuff. Oh, yes I did. I signed up for the Quintiles Wrightsville Beach Marathon, my backup marathon for Houston. And it may not even be a backup at that point, I may just run the hell out of it. It is only $60 to register for the month of May, and I know I can change it to the half if I want, but hey, it’s a really good deal. And it’s basically in my back yard. Bonus. I just got my wetsuit in the mail too. Yes, I sign up for and order stuff.
I’ve been running really well lately, too. I’ve been averaging 8:30 minute miles, even on the easy days, and Saturday’s 10 mile run was an 8:00 pace. It gave me a huge high… until I had to do back-breaking yard work the rest of the day. I keep putting off tri training too. I feel like I’m breaking up with running. “It’s not you, Running, it’s me!”. Oy, it feels silly but after focusing on running for so long, it’s hard to break out of that routine. BUT I am getting on that bike this week and taking a nice long ride, just to see where I’m at. Then next Monday, I’m headed out for my first open water swim. Will I get eaten by sharks? Will I start to love swimming and biking a fraction of how much I love running? I don’t know, but I’m sure going to try and have a little fun. And maybe by next week, I’ll have hung up my pictures.
So when you’re in between training for events, what do you do if you feel “meh”?